TMI...OVERLOAD...or BE STILL!?!?!

All the time I talk about peace of mind...being still and being - just paying attention to the present moment and letting life flow.  TALK IS EASY.  Doing and just Being is the challenge.  Sometimes I feel like the hamster on the wheel - confined in the environment and just using momentum to spin around in circles.  Sometimes it feels like a dog chasing its tail.  Whatever it is, it is not where I want and/or need to be but sometimes where I get caught! 
   Friend Lillian taught me the expression TMI - I sat with a question mark in my head when I saw the letters - yet when I went still I saw that it stood for TOO MUCH INFORMATION.  Yep I get it.  It's NOT a gift to have too much information and too many gifts/skills.  It's challenging to want to know everything and do everything.  It's a challenge friends for me to BE STILL - maybe except when I pick up my camera!?!?  Maybe that is where I need to BE more rather than always struggling to figure out who I am and where I fit and what would make me happy.  Friend Bob talks about simply Letting Go - letting go of what?  The need to know...the need to know what I will do with the pictures I take - the need to know what I will do with the quilting projects I do?  
   I have simple needs...wanting to BE...and be still and at peace.  Then I rediscover the 'junque' that is available to me - sugar, carbs, and related stuff.  Then I go there for a few days...and then again, I say, "OK it's time to LET IT GO!"  Now it's that time again...maybe this will be the last time?  Maybe.  Life in retirement can be BE STILL moments IF we allow them to shine and open our hearts and minds to them.  It's so simple...and not... This is where I really am deep inside - this water lily is the personification of Being Still and Peace...enough said...Let it BE!!

Excitement, Joy and Curiosity!!

Just the other day, the BE STILL and SEE photography group gathered to learn, share and have FUN.  That we did.  Little Friend captured this view of me.  It gives me pause to think about who I am and what brings joy to my life.  It's LIFE - learning and curiosity.  I want to know what is going on - what everything is all about - and I am often seeking out new knowledge because maybe - just maybe - I will learn something new that will make the journey - the puzzle of life - come together in a different way. 
    I look at my life as a puzzle - there are so many pieces - facets maybe - and as I gather in something new - zap - it falls into its place in the puzzle!  WOO HOO as I have been known to say lately.  The puzzle is never complete - now I am thinking that the solid outside is complete - and much of the inside too but...always one more piece floating in front of my face and wanting to be understood and/or to have her place.
    Today I was reading yet another article about diet/nutrition and a concept I knew about but well, could learn more clearly.  I wrote about this to a friend and she wrote back - no I don't know about that and am not sure I want to.  Gave me pause - she called it TMI!  Huh?  Then I thought - too much information!!  Gosh - in everything that I do, that describes me - looking for more information for clarity and understanding.  No wonder my brain is tired sometime!! 
   So I give myself pause and will go back to reading the Shambhala magazine that came today about finding your perfect self - and realizing that it already exists!!
   Oh - and a picture that will go to the gallery show in the Fall.  I love this for its simplicity!  Possibly I need to just sit and gaze at it and learn more of the lesson of perfection...and simplicity!?!?!